Eating raw...and starving

My New Year's resolution is to be more accountable...return more phone calls, isolate less. But, on top of that, I'm joining J in a quest to eat only raw foods for the first two weeks of 2008.

Why?

Well, J has his reasons and they're good ones. I'm doing the raw diet for two reasons: to see if I have an allergy to wheat or soy and to see if I can actually live without fatty-fat-fat food for two weeks. Let me say this now, to avoid the possible onslaught of concerned comments: I don't think I'm fat and I don't want to lose weight. That being said, I do think that I could stand to have better eating habits. Instead of stuffing food down my throat in a panic in order to satisfy an immense craving for fullness, I'd like to eat slowly and actually taste my food. I'd also like to be okay with eating a meal that doesn't include cheese, sugar or chocolate.

Anyway, the raw food lifestyle is evil. I've gone from eating two or three meals a day to eating every three seconds. And that's not the only thing I'm doing more often...

I'm also always hungry.

Here's what I'm craving: peanut butter, cheese, warm bread and chocolate.

Here's what I can eat: raw veggies, fruits, nuts, seeds, raw honey and unpasteurized dairy products.

Not even close. Not one damn iota.

J has all but begged me to just eat what I want. He's pretty tired of my complaining. Unfortunately, I find it ever so fun to ask "Can we eat _____?" (fill in the blank with something warm and unhealthy) repeatedly until I collapse in a fit of exhaustion.

At this point, I'd probably be willing to eat anything that was warm...recently killed animal, poop or plastic that's been baking in the sun.

But really, I think there's a benefit to this...and it'll be over soon. It hasn't been all bad...in fact, I felt so relaxed and healthy today that I was able to enjoy a great lunch with J and our friend, Danielle, in the "Area of Refuge" of the new student center. Seriously...it was called the "Area of Refuge."